Several things are happening at once and, as a result, I'm having some...feelings.
One: We sent the baby swing and a box of clothes home with mom and dad to be stored until they might (or might not) be necessary again.
Two: I'm weaning Baby Girl.
Three: I'm turning 32 and an article from last year is plaguing me--something to the effect of "women are at their beauty peak at age 31."
As suggested in the previous post, I tend to be a little, well, keep-y. I'm also pretty sentimental. My hubby is the opposite--he'll throw all kinds of things away without the thought of sentiment. He's anti-sentiment. (Read that carefully, he loves all peoples. He dated a Jewish girl in high school, though that may have had less to do with her being Jewish and more to do with her being a cheerleader.)
I teared up as we packed away the swing. Sure did. For a swing.
The weaning process is terrible. I truly never imagined it would be so difficult--for me. I'm sure the baby will be fine.
I won't miss the neck pain, the back pain, or feeling like Mr. Mayfield might pull up a stool next to me soon, yellow jug in hand. And truly, baby teeth are little torture devices--why do people ever want to get nipple piercings? There are other gruesome details that I am, for everyone's sake, keeping to myself.
I will miss the built-in diet, the immediate bottle, and the pre-meal little slap she gives me on my side, coupled with the anticipatory smile.
And since I spent half of age 31 pregnant and the other half recovering from being pregnant, do I get a do-over? Year 32, you kind of snuck up on me, but I'm ready for you...right after I take a nap.
I love your sense of humor, Stephanie, and I completely relate to how you feel. The year I turned 30 was my hardest year. I had just had, Chloe, my third, and I definitely had some post-post partum going; maybe it never left after the other two were born. I think I'm finally getting back to normal, somewhat, two years later.
ReplyDeleteHormones are a strange, crazy thing, and from what I understand, they can take quite a while sometimes to go back to normal. Just know that many of us can relate!
And by the way, I read that stupid article, as well. Seriously--what good do people think comes from writing an article telling women, "Hey! It's all downhill for you from here!" I wrote a post in response to it: http://www.jennifervdavis.com/?p=760 When I wrote it, I was starting to come out of the funk that you are in.
Hang in there! You are beautiful, funny, and a wonderful mother!
I remember your post--I read it after Jesse pointed out the article to me. We should find that author...
ReplyDeleteI don't know how you do it with 3, but right back at you, my friend!
Oh, and how many do I have to have to get one with red hair?